What Am I??

Not all things can be 100% perfect, especially me... Who dunno I am the eldest daughter in family??! And they will also know I will become a very useless sister in my family!!!

There's no reason why, I want to tear it all down.
There's no reason why, I am becoming a useless guy.
There's no reason why, I am becoming a persona non grata.
...

Just because I m not prettier than others.
Just because I m not cleverer than others.
Just because of this cruel world!!!
I hate all this!!...

Although I m the eldest, but all are like my sister more than me... And the question why, you may go and ask them...
Sometimes, this make me sick till I dun want to face anything anymore, because I know that it will be better then me if done by my sister... Be the translator, be the junior teacher teaches the kids, be the lovely daughter to my parents......

And, I am the person who always be lifted out... This make me become more and more feel inferior... Like my "motto", always be happy infront of the others, and who can know that the fear and tears inside my heart??... It s a quite oddly and sarcastically, I know...
So I like to be alone... Or maybe I m more like to be intensely... Quite tired to facing others' strange eyes... Cruel World... Haiz~

Enough is as good as a feast.
I hope so...